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I am the type of person who believes that I am fully responsible for how I am showing up in my life. I feel that if there is some situation that I don’t like, then there is something that I need to shift on the inside. Recently I was working with my coach and I discovered that I had a deep belief that I was unsupported by life.
We did some soul searching and I discovered this belief came from having other people make decisions on my behalf and me not feeling supported by the outcome. I felt that I was not supported by other people’s decisions. This resulted in me mirroring situations in my life where other people were indeed not acting in my best interest. I was experiencing people making decisions at work that didn’t feel good for me, and this was also reflected in my personal relationships and I believed that people would make decisions that would not support what I wanted.
I felt powerless, like I had to just wait for other people to make important decisions that would have a huge impact on my life. It is easy to look at this situation and see it from the perspective that this had nothing to do with me, but I have a deeper knowing of my own creative abilities. Whatever is not showing up in my life in the way that I want it to, this is because I am in some way reflecting that out into the world.
We did some healing of this belief system, I allowed myself to let go of this old system that was not supporting me. I allowed my subconscious to be reprogrammed with a new belief system that allowed me to feel fully supported by life.
I noticed that after we did this work, that my feelings of chaos and feeling unsupported began to subside. I knew a different relationship with life; one where I knew the outcomes to all the situations surrounding me would turn out for my best good. Since then, they have been turning out quite well.
Through that experience I was really aware of how my own chaotic energy, which was being generated by my own broken belief system was interfering with my ability to have a happy ending in my current experience. In shifting within, I noticed immediate shifts in my external reality and how I was relating to the world.
Having a coach is like having someone standing beside you challenging what you believe about yourself. All of the ways that you are not fully showing up in your life right now is a direct result of your own self-imposed limitations. I have been moving through years of old energetic debris and finally showing up in my life in the way that I want to shine. It makes me feel so good to know, that this is what I do for others as a goddess coach.
I encourage you to look deeply into your own life, and find the ways that you are not fully showing up in your life. How can you change your life by shifting what is within you?
I’ve been healing a lot of chaotic energy as well. Oh it feels so good, and reading about a piece of your journey was just beautiful. Thank you for sharing it.
I’ve been doing this work as well — it’s beautiful and deep and touching. I’ve changed around a very old family dynamic, simply by releasing old patterns and creating a higher vibration within myself! It might be worth sharing that there’s a self-healing technique, called Ho’oponopono, from Hawaii, that focuses on this exact same principle, and offers two sentences to actually break up the pattern and create a new reality: “For the part of me that’s responsible for X, I’m sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you,” repeated as many times as necessary, followed by “I will now change my attitudes, actions and behaviors to be in alignment with my highest and best good,” also repeated as necessary. If you find yourself yawning, you’re doing it right!